There are times in our lives when our Father in Heaven presents us with gifts that we would never ask for or want...such as this cancer. We realize that this gift cannot be returned and we know that it was given out of incredible love, but more importantly we have witnessed our parents acceptance of this gift with the same incredible love. When we are on the receiving end the responsibility lies within each of us as to what we will do with our gift.
Our parents continue to teach those around them gratitude, patience, service, and humility as they have so graciously accepted the gift of dad's cancer. This journey certainly is not an easy one to take but our eyes have been opened to the endless blessings we are receiving. Our hearts are so full of gratitude for the many prayers being offered in behalf of our family, your prayers are encouraging and sustaining. We are deeply grateful for Heaven's design of family and for the far reaching sources of love we are receiving from our immediate, extended, ward, and community family members. Your presence, prayers, encouraging words, love and support are penetrating and inspiring, we thank our Father in Heaven for each of you.
The Infectious Disease Doctor that has been called in recommended that dad have a CT of his head and abdomen, he has also indicated that one of the medications dad has been taking to prevent seizures could be a reason for his temperature spiking in the middle of the night. The Urology consult took place while none of us were there to talk with the doctor, it appears that he found everything within normal limits, however, dad's urinalysis taken on Monday is the only thing that has grown anything positive. All lab results are going to be somewhat altered because of the antibiotics that were administered early Monday morning and the IV antibiotics started in the ER.
Mom, Marty, Dave and I spent the evening with dad, we tried encouraging dad to drink some of the Jamba Juice we picked up on our way. Dad is very weak and tired, sucking out of the straw proved to be a difficult task. We will try again tomorrow.
Each day arrives bearing new gifts, we untie the ribbons and learn to enjoy.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
10.30.2008
Dad had a fairly good evening until his temperature spiked in the middle of the night, his blood pressure is now elevated as well. His fever was brought down with Tylenol and they are watching his blood pressure. Mom was able to visit with the Dr. Bishop, dad's ICU physician on the phone this morning where they discussed the possibility of dad being moved from ICU today, and possibly home by the weekend. Dad still has a long way to go but it appears that we may be managing some of his care from home. Dad has expressed his great desire to get home so that he can resume his chemo and radiation, however, we are nervous about bringing him home before we have some things resolved.
A consultation with a Urologist has been set up for this afternoon to begin addressing a couple of issues. It appears that the items brought to the attention of Dr. Bishop and the ICU staff on Tuesday have helped the lab and medical personnel get one step closer to resolving dad's medical mystery, this would be an answer to many prayers.
Dad has been moved from ICU to the Medical/Oncology floor, the level of care is certainly different than what we have become accustomed to, the sooner we can get him home the better. Mom had an assignment at the Conference Center this evening so I took dinner into dad and spent the afternoon and evening with him. When I arrived dad was up in a wheelchair preparing to go for an ultrasound of his leg to confirm that there are no clots or cellulitis present. Dad ate a large bowl of soup, crackers, and fresh sliced peaches for dinner. Matt, Michele, Carson, Madison and Dave arrived later in the evening for a visit. Dad is exhausted and has slept most of the day, his energy is very low but his temperature and blood pressure are staying within normal limits. We will address his energy through rest and good healthy food.
We are still waiting for a Urology consult, hopefully tomorrow. Dad is anxious to get home and is confident that he will get stronger as soon as he can go home, we are sure he will.
A consultation with a Urologist has been set up for this afternoon to begin addressing a couple of issues. It appears that the items brought to the attention of Dr. Bishop and the ICU staff on Tuesday have helped the lab and medical personnel get one step closer to resolving dad's medical mystery, this would be an answer to many prayers.
Dad has been moved from ICU to the Medical/Oncology floor, the level of care is certainly different than what we have become accustomed to, the sooner we can get him home the better. Mom had an assignment at the Conference Center this evening so I took dinner into dad and spent the afternoon and evening with him. When I arrived dad was up in a wheelchair preparing to go for an ultrasound of his leg to confirm that there are no clots or cellulitis present. Dad ate a large bowl of soup, crackers, and fresh sliced peaches for dinner. Matt, Michele, Carson, Madison and Dave arrived later in the evening for a visit. Dad is exhausted and has slept most of the day, his energy is very low but his temperature and blood pressure are staying within normal limits. We will address his energy through rest and good healthy food.
We are still waiting for a Urology consult, hopefully tomorrow. Dad is anxious to get home and is confident that he will get stronger as soon as he can go home, we are sure he will.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
10.29.2008
Dad spiked a fever of 104 again last evening, thankfully it came down after Tylenol had been administered, he has been fever free now for 7 hours. Dad was finally able to eat this morning and has tried to eat a little bit this afternoon, it is difficult when you can't tell what it is that you are eating.
Both of dad's Oncologists and the ICU doctor met with him this morning and have informed him of their plans of action, each would like to see dad discharged by this weekend and we would too as long as we are able to manage without complications. Dad must remain fever free, stable blood pressure, kidneys working, and ambulatory. If dad can get home by the weekend they will resume chemo and radiation on Monday. The nursing staff got dad out of bed today and sat him up in a reclining chair, he was able to sit there for nearly 45 minutes and then requested to get back in bed. This current bump in the road has knocked dad back several steps yet he is working hard to get back up to pace. We remain positive, hopeful, encouraged and patient.
All of the tests continue to return negative for any source of infection, how and why this happened remains a mystery. However, the ICU physician is looking into something that we brought to his attention on Tuesday that could very well be the cause of dad's septic condition. We are hopeful.
Mom went and picked up an absentee ballot for dad so that he can vote next week, she also stopped and received her flu shot. We had been waiting for dad to finish chemo and radiation because he cannot receive the flu shot until he has completed his treatments, we thought we would go and get our flu shots together, each of us will be taking care of that immediately.
Matt stopped by for a few minutes on his way home from work, mom and I spent the evening with dad. Dad is sitting up somewhat more in bed tonight and is watching a little television, his coloring looks much better and it is evident that he is gaining a little more strength and energy. His vitals are remaining stable, they are decreasing some of his medications, and we now need to focus on his appetite and fluid intake. Mom visited with Marty tonight, he will arrive tomorrow and dad was able to visit on the phone with Maigan.
Dad experienced a little bleeding episode this evening from his arterial line which resulted in changing sheets, pillow cases, arm splint, and hospital gown. When mom and I left this evening dad was enjoying a slice of pumpkin roll from his dinner tray and a lemon meringue tart that mom had brought him;, this is all he would eat. We will see if we can't satisfy is appetite with a few of his favorite things tomorrow.
Both of dad's Oncologists and the ICU doctor met with him this morning and have informed him of their plans of action, each would like to see dad discharged by this weekend and we would too as long as we are able to manage without complications. Dad must remain fever free, stable blood pressure, kidneys working, and ambulatory. If dad can get home by the weekend they will resume chemo and radiation on Monday. The nursing staff got dad out of bed today and sat him up in a reclining chair, he was able to sit there for nearly 45 minutes and then requested to get back in bed. This current bump in the road has knocked dad back several steps yet he is working hard to get back up to pace. We remain positive, hopeful, encouraged and patient.
All of the tests continue to return negative for any source of infection, how and why this happened remains a mystery. However, the ICU physician is looking into something that we brought to his attention on Tuesday that could very well be the cause of dad's septic condition. We are hopeful.
Mom went and picked up an absentee ballot for dad so that he can vote next week, she also stopped and received her flu shot. We had been waiting for dad to finish chemo and radiation because he cannot receive the flu shot until he has completed his treatments, we thought we would go and get our flu shots together, each of us will be taking care of that immediately.
Matt stopped by for a few minutes on his way home from work, mom and I spent the evening with dad. Dad is sitting up somewhat more in bed tonight and is watching a little television, his coloring looks much better and it is evident that he is gaining a little more strength and energy. His vitals are remaining stable, they are decreasing some of his medications, and we now need to focus on his appetite and fluid intake. Mom visited with Marty tonight, he will arrive tomorrow and dad was able to visit on the phone with Maigan.
Dad experienced a little bleeding episode this evening from his arterial line which resulted in changing sheets, pillow cases, arm splint, and hospital gown. When mom and I left this evening dad was enjoying a slice of pumpkin roll from his dinner tray and a lemon meringue tart that mom had brought him;, this is all he would eat. We will see if we can't satisfy is appetite with a few of his favorite things tomorrow.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
10.28.2008
We received no phone calls in the middle of the night from the hospital, this is both comforting and confirming that dad has remained stable. Dave, Matt and Mom have been with dad this morning as the hospital staff continues to battle with dad's fever, it is at 104 this morning. Dad has received an alcohol bath and is lying on a pad that circulates cool water up and down his back. His spirits remain positive and he is anxious to get this issue resolved so that he can resume chemo and radiation. All blood cultures and tests continue to come back negative in efforts to determine the source of dad's infection. We may never know where or how this originated.
The ICU physician and dad's medical oncologist have both visited with our family this morning, they are encouraging and hopeful that dad will spend only a short time in the hospital.
We have diligently worked at keeping our father and ourselves healthy, germ free, and physically well so that we may address our parents needs, the source of dad's infection is unknown at this time and we realize that we will make ourselves crazy by continuing to discover where we went wrong in allowing him to get sick. We know that it could be as simple as touching a door knob, sitting next to someone who has been ill, or through a hug or shake of the hand; we are also aware that it could be far more complicated. We acknowledge the love and concern for our family from neighbors, family, and friends but we must ask you once again to respect our wishes of no visitors. Our father is in a very fragile and compromising condition at this time and members of the staff are attending to him fully gowned, masked, and gloved, his environment must remain completely sterile.
We will make every attempt to update dad's website with the latest of information, please understand that our time and efforts are dedicated to caring for our mother and father. It is just as important for mom to stay well-rested as it is for dad, our family is striving to care for her needs as compassionately as the hospital staff is caring for our father. We are encouraging her to rest and care for herself while she is at home (which isn't much these days). It is going to be impossible for us to return each and every phone call, we know that you understand. If you would like to send a note or card we will see that dad receives them.
Our prayer requests for today are for dad's blood pressure to stabilize, temperature to go down, fluid output to increase, and for the arms of peace and comfort to gently carry our father through this little storm.
Mom and I spent the afternoon and evening with dad, Matt stopped by on his way home. Medical staff was finally able to bring dad's temperature down but it was not without a whole lot of "torture". Dad has commented several times this evening how awful the cold water was running up and down his back. Dad's temperature, fluid output, blood pressure, and heart rate are all within normal levels this evening and they are now tapering off some of dad's medications. Our prayers are working. Dad once again is receiving insulin due to elevated blood sugars, steroids, and stress can elevate one's blood sugar. They also started Lovenox injections into dad's stomach, this will prevent blood clots and deep vein thrombosis. The ICU physician had ordered an ultrasound of dad's gallbladder, this was completed this evening without incident. Dad needed to be NPO in order for them to get a good ultrasound, dad has not eaten since yesterday morning. The nurse gave dad something to help him sleep this evening, they are hoping that restful sleep will allow his temperature to go down.
All tests continue to be negative, unfortunately, this does not bring us any closer to answers as to why this happened.
Through this experience we are being reminded of the importance of faith and patience. Thank you so much for each of your prayers, we have witnessed the power of your words and the grace of our Father in Heaven in dad's improving condition.
10.27.2008
Mom called this morning at 7:00 a.m. to let me know that dad's fever had not come down and that they had spent a very miserable, rough night. Dad has had ice packs on his head and behind his neck through the night. Mom called his Medical Oncologist and was able to speak to the Doctor on call, he instructed her to give dad two Tylenol and to go to the ER if she felt it was necessary. Following the administration of the tylenol dad's temperature did come down and he was resting comfortably. Dad was able to take his chemo last night even after the first attempt of his anti-nausea medication not staying down. Dad has a prescription for an antibiotic that is not to be used unless fever and chills present, mom gave him his first dose last evening. Dave stopped by to check on mom and dad on his way to work and reported that dad was physically drained and resting well.
Dad had an appointment with his Medical Oncologist today at noon, dad struggled to get dressed, take his morning meds and get out the door; he is exhausted. Dad was able to visit with Anthony on the phone just prior to leaving for his appointment, as always Anthony provided dad with laughter, encouragement and put a smile on his face.
Dad had an appointment with his Medical Oncologist today at noon, dad struggled to get dressed, take his morning meds and get out the door; he is exhausted. Dad was able to visit with Anthony on the phone just prior to leaving for his appointment, as always Anthony provided dad with laughter, encouragement and put a smile on his face.
I received a phone call from mom around 2:00 this afternoon stating that dad had collapsed at his appointment and that he had been rushed to the ER where he collapsed in the wheelchair a second time. When I arrived at the hospital doctors, nurses, lab technicians, and respiratory staff were each administering care to dad. The ICU doctor and dad's Medical Oncologist had also run from their respective areas to be at dad's side. We have been informed that our father is gravely ill.
Dad has severe sepsis, a serious medical condition caused by an infection; he has blood poisoning. Dad's current condition has lead to organ dysfunction of his heart and kidneys, low blood pressure, lactic acidosis, and decreased fluid output. The reason for dad's collapse is due to his body going into septic shock. As sick as he is dad reminded the staff that they needed to work quickly because he has a 3:30 appointment for radiation. He is such a trooper.
Dad was quickly transported to the ICU where a central venous catheter was placed into his chest (without anesthesia or numbing agents) to monitor his heart function, IV lines placed to deliver fluids, antibiotics, dopamine (for blood pressure), and liquid proteins to his body. Medical personnel are working fast and furious to attend to our father's needs.
Mom and I were able to visit with the ICU physician shortly after they placed dad in ICU, he explained to us the seriousness of dad's condition and the battle we are facing. Dad is suffering from multiple organ dysfunction syndrome (multiple organ failure). They are aggressively working to stabilize dad and get the appropriate antibiotics into his blood stream. Numerous blood draws for labs have been done in an effort to determine the source of dad's infection, results could take anywhere from 12-72 hours.
Hospital staff has struggled throughout the afternoon to get dad's blood pressure up. His heart functioning tests all prove to be good, chest x-ray came back negative, this indicates that dad does not have a pneumonia. Later this evening respiratory struggled to place an arterial line in dad's arm, after 7 attempts the ICU physician told them they were finished, he placed the line without difficulty. Dad's veins and arteries are being affected by his severe dehydration and infection, this makes it more difficult to place the necessary lines and IV's. Once the arterial line was placed they were able to obtain a more accurate and consistent blood pressure, now dad's body just needs to maintain good numbers.
Dad has been able to rest comfortably in between procedures, he and mom are both exhausted. Dad's Medical Oncologist came to visit with us this evening, we are so impressed with each and every member of dad's medical team; they are compassionate, caring, honest, encouraging, and hope providing. Dad is alert and aware of all that is being done, he participates in each discussion and expresses profound gratitude to each and every member of the staff administering care to him.
Matt stopped by this evening to see dad, we have been updating Marty via his phone, he will be here Thursday evening. Mom has called Jeff to inform him of dad's condition. Uncle David, Aunt Gayle and Aunt Connie have also been informed that dad is in ICU. Dave, mom and I stayed with dad until we could see that he was making some improvement. Dad's nurse indicated this evening that dad's immune system is seriously depleted and that no one, small children included can be around dad if they have not received the flu shot. Each of the tests they have run so far to determine the source of dad's infection have come back negative, this can complicate things as far as determining the accurate antibiotics to treat the sepsis, he is receiving a broad spectrum antibiotic at this time and will continue until they can see if something grows from the cultures. When we left dad this evening his coloring was good,he was finally producing urine and we were able to make one another laugh.
Once again, we are humbled, grateful, and blessed knowing that so many are praying for our family at this time. Your continued prayers are appreciated and we want you to know that we feel each and every one of them. Dad has shown us today that the positive thinker sees the invisible, feels the intangible, and achieves the impossible.
Our parents are remarkable individuals, they continue to remain positive, strong, and believing. We are committed in standing up with our parents as we fight this battle, we invite each of you to do the same.
10.26.2008
Mom had an early morning assignment at the Tabernacle this morning and was hoping to make it home in time to get dad to church, he has been looking forward to this all week.
Teri and Samantha stopped by this morning to visit with dad before they returned to Idaho, nothing is better than visits from family. Dad enjoyed the time he was able to spend visiting with two of his favorite girls. Mom arrived home just in time to pick up dad and get to church. Dad enjoyed attending all three of his meetings today. As he reported the events of his day while we were visiting later this afternoon he exclaimed "I have had a wonderful day, it has been wonderful!" I could see by the spark in his eye and feel the energy from his soul that he truly had experienced a "wonderful day."
My visit with mom and dad today was most inspiring and touching, dad shared some fitting advice, doctrine, and insight into the economic despair of the world and the role our obedience plays in receiving blessings that have been promised. Mom shared her tender moments of being able to be with President Monson this morning, as I commented on the sweet opportunity mom had of serving the Prophet she said "I was serving him, and he was serving me." The missionary blessings continue to pour down upon our family, we are blessed and we are humbled. The Home Teachers came to visit with mom and dad this evening and then Michele, Carson and Madi arrived bearing homemade chocolate chip cookies; a perfectly sweet end to their "wonderful day".
Mom phoned less than 90 minutes after I had left to report that dad had started chilling while the kids were there and his temperature was at 103. We discussed getting his fever down and administering antibiotics. I will wait for mom's call, we may be headed to the ER if dad cannot get his fever to break.
Teri and Samantha stopped by this morning to visit with dad before they returned to Idaho, nothing is better than visits from family. Dad enjoyed the time he was able to spend visiting with two of his favorite girls. Mom arrived home just in time to pick up dad and get to church. Dad enjoyed attending all three of his meetings today. As he reported the events of his day while we were visiting later this afternoon he exclaimed "I have had a wonderful day, it has been wonderful!" I could see by the spark in his eye and feel the energy from his soul that he truly had experienced a "wonderful day."
My visit with mom and dad today was most inspiring and touching, dad shared some fitting advice, doctrine, and insight into the economic despair of the world and the role our obedience plays in receiving blessings that have been promised. Mom shared her tender moments of being able to be with President Monson this morning, as I commented on the sweet opportunity mom had of serving the Prophet she said "I was serving him, and he was serving me." The missionary blessings continue to pour down upon our family, we are blessed and we are humbled. The Home Teachers came to visit with mom and dad this evening and then Michele, Carson and Madi arrived bearing homemade chocolate chip cookies; a perfectly sweet end to their "wonderful day".
Mom phoned less than 90 minutes after I had left to report that dad had started chilling while the kids were there and his temperature was at 103. We discussed getting his fever down and administering antibiotics. I will wait for mom's call, we may be headed to the ER if dad cannot get his fever to break.
10.25.2008
Mom and dad have had a busy day trying to get their new satellite hooked up and working, it has been an all day process. After six hours of hard work, new cables, new connections, and multiple trips up and down the ladder the television was working! Dad was able to enjoy an afternoon of BYU football from the comforts of home. Dad has completed a few projects around the house and yard this week which he has enjoyed being able to do. We are so blessed that he has not suffered from the harsh effects of the radiation and chemo.
10.24.2008
Week four complete, dad is excited and we are too! He has already called and arranged to get back on the schedule at the temple, he is looking forward to his first shift on November 6th. He informed his supervisor that he could work most of his shift on his first day back but would need to leave early because he was going to the airport to pick up his missionary, we are looking forward to November 6, 2008 for more than one reason.
10.23.2008
Dad has spent a quiet day at home reading his scriptures and his new book. Mom had arranged to have new rain gutters installed on the front and back of their home so dad was there to supervise the project. Radiation continues as planned, dad is counting down the days for his last treatment. We are so grateful for the kindness and charity of dad's friends in his ward who take him to and from his daily treatments, we are surrounded by angels.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
10.22.2008
Dad has had a fantastic day. His good friend Don H. came to visit with him today, they spent three hours visiting and having lunch at Subway. When I called dad this afternoon to see how his day was he was so excited to tell me about a new book that he had been reading. One of their dear neighbors and friend brought by a book that has opened the flood gates of memories from dad's mission in Germany. I could feel of dad's excitement as he was telling me about all of the connections he had made while reading today.
Governor Huntsman showed Carson around his office, allowed him to sit at his desk, and took him to his memorabilia room to show him his motorcycle helmets and trophy's.
Dad's radiation treatments have been different this week as the doctor has ordered longer treatments on only two sites rather than four. Dad said that his Radiation Oncologist had told him the last two weeks of treatment would be somewhat different than the first four, they also took plain x-rays today at treatment. Dad's scar has healed so nicely, he has taken very careful care of massaging Vitamin E oil to the surgery site several times a day.
One of the greatest moments of today is when Michele called to have mom talk to Carson about his big day. Carson explained to mom that he had been given an assignment to write a report in school about a local government official, he could choose whomever he wanted to research and report on. In Michele Evans style she suggested that they start at the top, so she called the Governor's office to see how she could arrange to bring Carson to the State Capitol to see where our Utah Government officials work. She was told that the Governor would be happy to talk to Carson and show him around his office, they were given an appointment to go to the Governors office on October 22, 2008.
Carson and Governor Jon Huntsman
10.22.2008
Governor Huntsman showed Carson around his office, allowed him to sit at his desk, and took him to his memorabilia room to show him his motorcycle helmets and trophy's.
Governor Huntsman provided Carson with great information for his report and brochures to use in his oral presentation. Governor Huntsman and Carson talked about his daughter Gracie who is Carson's exact age and then he presented Carson with a handwritten note thanking him for visiting him and that he deserves an A on his report. I think we have a little politician on our hands.
When dad learned of Carson's big day he was so, so excited and so, so proud. Dad has had a quality filled day. We are excited to hear how Carson's oral presentation goes tomorrow. Way to go Michele, you and Matt are such great parents!
10.21.2008
I stopped by mom and dad's this evening to visit but no one was home, as I was backing out of their driveway they pulled up behind me. As they got out of their car and I asked where they had been dad announced "we've been to a wedding". This was my first clue that something had occurred during the day if dad was out and about going to weddings.
Dad was able to visit with the Radiation Oncologists PA today, she asked him what he did for a living and dad stated that he was retired. She asked what other activities he participated in, dad informed her that he was a temple worker, a church service missionary, and that he had horses; dad's instructions from her were that he should continue doing these things as he feels able. The green light is flashing and dad is off running, he has already contacted their supervisor at the Conference Center and is contacting the temple in the morning to get back on the schedule. Dad is excited, we are nervous. We are not nervous about him over extending himself because his body let's him know when he has had enough and it is time to rest. What we are nervous about are the germs and illnesses he could potentially be exposed to. It is difficult to wrap our minds around quality of life vs. quantity of life, when it is your loved one you want them to have both. Dad has had a wonderful day, getting the green light to return to activities that mean the very most to him and visiting with Anthony on the phone; dad is a happy, happy man tonight.
We know that this is going to be an additional learning moment for each of us, we will continue to pray that his body and immune system will be protected while he is pursuing quality living moments. We are determined to remain vigilant in staying healthy, germ free, strong and we just hope that others will as well. As Dave has stated "Marietta is going to be a Nervous Nelly", that makes several of us mom. Flu shots here we come.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
10.20.2008
Dad began his fourth week of radiation today. We are so grateful for dad's High Priest friends in his ward who have been so generous in seeing that dad gets to his daily appointment, we are thankful for your acts of service and kindness in our behalf.
Dad spent time studying, reading, and watching some of his favorite movies. He continues to exercise and remain patient while we are trying to get his computer up and working again.
Dad spent time studying, reading, and watching some of his favorite movies. He continues to exercise and remain patient while we are trying to get his computer up and working again.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
10.19.2008
Mom drove to Salt Lake early this morning to attend to her weekly duties at the Conference Center. Dad listened to Sacrament Meeting at home, he is so grateful for this opportunity and blessing. While dinner was in the oven mom and dad took advantage of the beautiful weather going for a mile walk, they walked past our home but could not stop due to Dave being under the weather.
Mom had an assignment at the Bountiful Regional Center this evening and left late this afternoon to drive up. Dad would love to be able to attend the events and fulfill his missionary calling and we look forward to the day very soon that he can, patience.
Jeff and Steph stopped by this afternoon and Jeff shaved dad's head. Uncle Rex and Beth are down south for the winter and dad was in need of a little trim.
Dad called me later this evening to check on Dave, we had a nice visit regarding the days events and the things going on in our lives.
Whether I am in dad's presence or visiting with him on the phone the feelings of true peace are incredibly tangible. My father has taught me that true peace of mind is not dependent on one's circumstances, it comes from within. I often reflect back on the priesthood blessing that Matt and Dave gave my father the night he was admitted to the hospital and the blessing that followed two days later. I know that in order for priesthood blessings to be effective one must be humble, teachable, and willing to submit our will to the Lord as counseled. Our father has demonstrated full faith and complete confidence in the counsel he has received through the priesthood, more importantly, he has the courage to follow it.
These priesthood blessings have been a great source of comfort to us and have provided feelings of peace, hope, patience, and endless love. Our minds are invigorated and our spirits are renewed as we witness the determination of our father as he stands up to cancer.
Mom had an assignment at the Bountiful Regional Center this evening and left late this afternoon to drive up. Dad would love to be able to attend the events and fulfill his missionary calling and we look forward to the day very soon that he can, patience.
Jeff and Steph stopped by this afternoon and Jeff shaved dad's head. Uncle Rex and Beth are down south for the winter and dad was in need of a little trim.
Dad called me later this evening to check on Dave, we had a nice visit regarding the days events and the things going on in our lives.
Whether I am in dad's presence or visiting with him on the phone the feelings of true peace are incredibly tangible. My father has taught me that true peace of mind is not dependent on one's circumstances, it comes from within. I often reflect back on the priesthood blessing that Matt and Dave gave my father the night he was admitted to the hospital and the blessing that followed two days later. I know that in order for priesthood blessings to be effective one must be humble, teachable, and willing to submit our will to the Lord as counseled. Our father has demonstrated full faith and complete confidence in the counsel he has received through the priesthood, more importantly, he has the courage to follow it.
These priesthood blessings have been a great source of comfort to us and have provided feelings of peace, hope, patience, and endless love. Our minds are invigorated and our spirits are renewed as we witness the determination of our father as he stands up to cancer.
10.18.2008
Mom and dad spent the day together trying to alleviate boredom and "cabin fever". Dad rode with mom to the grocery store and for the first time in years dad purchased some Burnt Almond Fudge ice cream, we are hopeful that he will put on a few of the pounds that he has lost along the way. Later this afternoon dad mentioned that some Kentucky Fried Chicken, potatoes, gravy, and biscuits sounded appetizing, so KFC it is. Dad has wanted to ride out to Matt and Michele's to see Matt's progress on his fencing, this is a project dad had been helping Matt with when he became ill. Mom drove dad out west where they had a good visit with the kids, Matt and Michele were out on a date celebrating Matt's recent birthday.
Monday, October 20, 2008
10.17.2008
Week three of radiation is now complete, I met dad at his radiation appointment today and we walked together over to the hospital to have his blood drawn. As we sat waiting for the phlebotomist dad was recalling waking up last evening in the middle of the night worrying about a few things that needed to be done to the trailer and car before winter arrives. When we pulled in the driveway he mentioned that he was going to take the battery and propane tank off of the trailer, I saw this as an opportunity for a learning moment. Together we walked over to the trailer and he began to instruct me on how to accomplish the task of winterizing the trailer, dad took the propane tank and I carried the battery. As we walked home in silence I thought to myself how grateful I am for these simple teaching moments with my father.
At the end of each day I find myself reviewing of how my Father in Heaven blessed me today, without hesitation, I recall the multiple ways our parents continue to teach us. Dad is steadfast in his expressions of profound gratitude for each simple act of kindness rendered to him, he is so thankful.
"Gratitude is deeper than thanks. Thankfulness is the beginning of gratitude. Gratitude is the completion of thankfulness. Thankfulness may consist merely of words. Gratitude is shown in acts." President David O. McKay
At the end of each day I find myself reviewing of how my Father in Heaven blessed me today, without hesitation, I recall the multiple ways our parents continue to teach us. Dad is steadfast in his expressions of profound gratitude for each simple act of kindness rendered to him, he is so thankful.
"And he who receiveth all things with thankfulness shall be made glorious; and the things of this earth shall be added unto him, even an hundred fold, ye more."
D&C 78:19
I continue to pray that I will remain teachable and continue to show gratitude in all things.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
10.15.2008
Dad is feeling much better following this weekends minor setback. Radiation and chemo have not been interrupted, we are grateful. Matt stopped by on his way home from work today so that mom and dad could wish him a Happy Birthday.
I took dinner into mom and dad this evening, dad is on somewhat of a strict eating schedule due to his chemo needing to be taken on an empty stomach. While dad was eating his dinner mom and I quickly pulled up the frozen tomato plants so that they could go out with tomorrow's garbage, it was nice to enjoy the warmer weather working in the yard. Dave stopped by on his way home from work to visit with mom and dad.
I am realizing more each day how wonderfully gifted and talented our parents are, they are able to demonstrate Joy, Gratitude, and Endurance despite this unpleasant situation. Each of us are born with gifts and talents but not all of us learn to develop our talents and learn to channel them into meaningful actions. There are individuals all around us who are challenged with adversity yet they remain joyful, our parents are two of these individuals. Finding Joy is a talent, more importantly, it is a choice.
Gratitude does not always come easily and is not usually recognized as a talent but more of a requirement. The talent comes when we are truly grateful. Mom and Dad are steadfast examples of practicing Gratitude at all times and for all things, even their challenges.
Endurance is a valuable talent and essential to one's spiritual progression. Enduring may not always be easy but the best things in life usually are not discovered by taking the easy road.
Through the loving example of our parents I am learning that the ability to find Joy, express Gratitude and to graciously Endure all things are divine talents. Through their willingness to share their talents our family is being blessed, inspired, and comforted.
Dad had another quiet day at home resting, reading, and watching some movies. When mom returned from work they drove down to Parker's to get a sandwich for dinner. They came over after their dinner to watch the BYU game with Dave and I. A BYU game is always better when mom is around (even when they lose!).A few months ago we had had the following scripture posted in our kitchen:
"Therefore, dearly beloved, let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see the salvation of God, for his arm to be revealed." D&C 123:17
I took dinner into mom and dad this evening, dad is on somewhat of a strict eating schedule due to his chemo needing to be taken on an empty stomach. While dad was eating his dinner mom and I quickly pulled up the frozen tomato plants so that they could go out with tomorrow's garbage, it was nice to enjoy the warmer weather working in the yard. Dave stopped by on his way home from work to visit with mom and dad.
I am realizing more each day how wonderfully gifted and talented our parents are, they are able to demonstrate Joy, Gratitude, and Endurance despite this unpleasant situation. Each of us are born with gifts and talents but not all of us learn to develop our talents and learn to channel them into meaningful actions. There are individuals all around us who are challenged with adversity yet they remain joyful, our parents are two of these individuals. Finding Joy is a talent, more importantly, it is a choice.
Gratitude does not always come easily and is not usually recognized as a talent but more of a requirement. The talent comes when we are truly grateful. Mom and Dad are steadfast examples of practicing Gratitude at all times and for all things, even their challenges.
Endurance is a valuable talent and essential to one's spiritual progression. Enduring may not always be easy but the best things in life usually are not discovered by taking the easy road.
Through the loving example of our parents I am learning that the ability to find Joy, express Gratitude and to graciously Endure all things are divine talents. Through their willingness to share their talents our family is being blessed, inspired, and comforted.
10.16.2008
Dad had another quiet day at home resting, reading, and watching some movies. When mom returned from work they drove down to Parker's to get a sandwich for dinner. They came over after their dinner to watch the BYU game with Dave and I. A BYU game is always better when mom is around (even when they lose!).A few months ago we had had the following scripture posted in our kitchen:
"Therefore, dearly beloved, let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see the salvation of God, for his arm to be revealed." D&C 123:17
The above scripture has resonated through my mind multiple times in the past several weeks. Each time I see our father he is happy, positive, thankful, and cheerful. Some days the mere thought of enduring one more thing is exhausting, it is on these days that I have learned to quickly turn my thoughts to our parents. It is there in these thoughts that I am able to discover the ability to stretch just a little bit more. I know that our Father in Heaven is never going to ask us to do the impossible, even though it may seem impossible at the time. What He does ask of us is that we reach a little higher, pray a little more earnestly and then stand, reverently still, knowing that He will reveal his arm.
I am learning the valuable lesson that when we knock the Savior will answer. When we cry out for Him, he is there. Through this journey we find ourselves reaching and stretching to heights we never knew possible. Growing closer to our Savior is so worth the stretch.
President Spencer W. Kimball has said:
"There are depths in the sea which the storms that lash the surface into fury never reach. They who reach down into the depths of where, in the stillness, the voice of God is heard, have the stabilizing power which carries them poised and serene through the hurricane of the difficulties."
It is comforting to have parents who through their example are teaching each one of us to reach down deep, so that we too, can stand poised and serene.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
10.14.2008
Mom called shortly after Dave and I had been home less than hour last evening, she had gone into see if dad had taken his chemo and found the bed to be soaking wet. The fever dad had been struggling with for the past two days had obviously broken. Their evening continued to be difficult throughout the night, they were up four additional times changing the bedding. It is obvious that dad's body is fighting off something, we are so grateful his body is fighting along with the antibiotics. It is a good thing they stopped at four episodes or else they would have had to start bed hopping throughout the house.
Dad slept in for several hours this morning, we are thankful he was able to finally rest. Dave went over and spent time with dad this morning and Michele came for a few hours this afternoon.
Dad was able to receive his radiation today and the PA indicated that she was not at all surprised with the events of the past few days. Dad's blood work came back all within normal limits other than his sodium and electrolytes, we anticipated that they would both be off due to his fever, sweats, and chills.
Dad slept in for several hours this morning, we are thankful he was able to finally rest. Dave went over and spent time with dad this morning and Michele came for a few hours this afternoon.
Dad was able to receive his radiation today and the PA indicated that she was not at all surprised with the events of the past few days. Dad's blood work came back all within normal limits other than his sodium and electrolytes, we anticipated that they would both be off due to his fever, sweats, and chills.
It is not faith and works
It is not faith or works
It is faith that works
Thank you for your constant prayers in our behalf, we are witnesses that they are working.
Monday, October 13, 2008
10.13.2008
I received an early morning phone call advising me that "dad has not had a very good night". Dad had been up most of the night chilling and feverish. At 4:30 a.m. his temperature was 103, this is not good. Dad's Medical Oncologist had given dad a prescription for a strong antibiotic that we were to leave on the shelf unless fever and chilling symptoms presented themselves, mom administered the first dose early this morning.
More than a third of all cancer patients will experience fever as a result of an infection, the tumor itself, chemo treatments, or the development of an autoimmune disease. Dad's blood work from last Thursday was good, yet, we understand that the tide can change without any indication.
Mom placed a call to the Medical Oncologist and we will wait to hear from him. In the meantime dad is trying to stay warm. Dave stopped by to check on dad this morning, they had a good visit and dad remains in good spirits. Dad performed his daily exercise routine and is planning on taking a good long nap after radiation this afternoon.
Mom came home from work in time to encourage dad to eat some lunch and stay hydrated. Dad had consented to wait for mom to get home before taking a shower, he is somewhat unstable on his feet since the fever presented itself. Mom spoke to doctor's office and they have ordered more blood work and have requested that the Radiation Oncologist check vitals and dad's heart when he is there for his daily radiation. Fevers are always an indication that something is wrong, and should be treated immediately. Fevers often indicate an infection in chemo/radiation patients. We must remember that dad's blood counts are low and that his body will not be able to fight off infection on it's own. We will continue to be diligent in protecting ourselves and dad from coughs, colds, flu and germs.
Dad was able to receive radiation this afternoon, x-rays were done, vitals taken, and blood was drawn from both arms. Dad's heart continues to be strong, his blood pressure is fantastic, and his temperature is now within normal limits. The radiation nurse told dad she was not surprised he was experiencing chills and fever considering all that his body is enduring, this is reassuring.
Dad was on the phone with Anthony when Dave and I arrived this evening. Dad remained in bed resting, staying warm, and trying to stay hydrated, tonight is the first time that dad has appeared ill. We are encouraging dad to sleep as much as he desires...he deserves it.
Our prayers today include requests for fever to subside, treatable infection, continuation of treatments, and strengthening of our courage, faith, and understanding.
10.12.2008
Upon returning from an early morning assignment at the Conference Center mom came home to a chilling and feverish patient. Dad commented "I am not having a very good day" this is a clear indication that he is not feeling well, our father never complains.
These symptoms of chills, and fatigue are not surprising considering the toxicity of the treatments he is receiving. We had been informed early into this journey of the possible side effects from chemo and radiation, however, one cannot be completely prepared for the sudden onset of such symptoms. Cancer treatment can cause a variety of symptoms, some of which can be risky and pose complications for recovery; fatigue, nausea, vomiting, fever and infection are just a few of the symptoms dad could experience. We have been educated and understand that symptoms may not manifest until 2-3 weeks into treatment, we have just completed week three. We have been so blessed to complete half of this treatment phase with few side effects, we now need to stand up, increase our prayers, and practice faith.
Dad took a three hour nap today which is highly unusual for him, he kept reassuring mom that he thinks he got chilled following his shower and that is the cause for his chilling. Dad's appetite has also decreased somewhat today, this is another indication that something is not right.
Jeff and Steph stopped by this afternoon and dad visited on the phone with McLean. We are watching dad closely and will contact his physicians immediately upon any changes.
These symptoms of chills, and fatigue are not surprising considering the toxicity of the treatments he is receiving. We had been informed early into this journey of the possible side effects from chemo and radiation, however, one cannot be completely prepared for the sudden onset of such symptoms. Cancer treatment can cause a variety of symptoms, some of which can be risky and pose complications for recovery; fatigue, nausea, vomiting, fever and infection are just a few of the symptoms dad could experience. We have been educated and understand that symptoms may not manifest until 2-3 weeks into treatment, we have just completed week three. We have been so blessed to complete half of this treatment phase with few side effects, we now need to stand up, increase our prayers, and practice faith.
Dad took a three hour nap today which is highly unusual for him, he kept reassuring mom that he thinks he got chilled following his shower and that is the cause for his chilling. Dad's appetite has also decreased somewhat today, this is another indication that something is not right.
Jeff and Steph stopped by this afternoon and dad visited on the phone with McLean. We are watching dad closely and will contact his physicians immediately upon any changes.
10.11.2008
Football, food, fire in the fireplace, faith and family are on the agenda for today, Dave and I had mom and dad over to watch the BYU game today. Our home was enhanced by their company, mom's squeals of delight when a good play had been executed, a yummy pizza dinner and a cozy fire as our backdrop.
As I quietly sat back and observed my parents today I marveled at their inner strength, through their strength and courage our family has been blessed with power and peace of mind. Our parents level of faith is sufficient and deep, they are showing us daily that we cannot become strong without sufficient faith in the power of our Father in Heaven. We have experienced a month full of faith increasing opportunities and we know that without faith we cannot receive answers to our prayers.
"Whose believeth in Christ, doubting nothing, whatsoever he shall ask the Father in the name of Christ it shall be granted him" Mormon 9:21
We have witnessed extraordinary blessings and miracles throughout this journey, we continue to receive great strength and power through the many prayers offered in our behalf, and we deeply feel the love, compassion and concern for us during this challenging time. We pray that we will remain humble and teachable so that our understanding may be enlightened and expanded.
10.10.2008
Week three of radiation is complete, dad is sporting a new hairless style and is looking good! I met dad at radiation today and then we walked over to the hospital to have his weekly blood draw. The Medical Oncologist had ordered an additional blood test to check dad's dilantin level. Dad currently takes a medication to help prevent seizures and a medication to decrease brain swelling, these levels along with his blood count must be checked regularly.
We acknowledge that at any time we could find ourselves tossed about on the high sea throughout this cancer storm, we also know that a smooth sea never made a skilled mariner. We are grateful for our parents stable courage, strength, and skill as we sail these uncharted waters.
We acknowledge that at any time we could find ourselves tossed about on the high sea throughout this cancer storm, we also know that a smooth sea never made a skilled mariner. We are grateful for our parents stable courage, strength, and skill as we sail these uncharted waters.
10.9.2008
Dave and dad continue to enjoy their morning walks and will do so until weather does not permit. Dad was able to visit with his Radiation Oncologist yesterday when he went for his treatment, once again he was told how remarkable he is. His physician told him that in ten years of practice he has yet to see a patient with such promise, we are profoundly blessed.
Mom took dad over to Uncle Rex this evening to have his head shaved, it has become beyond difficult keeping up with dad's rapid hair loss. When dad removed his beanie this morning following his walk the entire inside of his cap was silver. Dad got out the vacuum when they returned home and began cleaning out his hat.
Mom took dad over to Uncle Rex this evening to have his head shaved, it has become beyond difficult keeping up with dad's rapid hair loss. When dad removed his beanie this morning following his walk the entire inside of his cap was silver. Dad got out the vacuum when they returned home and began cleaning out his hat.
10.8.2008
What was there yesterday is gone today, those subtle side effects of cancer are not so subtle today, dad's hair has started falling out. Mom had an event at the Conference Center this evening and dad wanted to ride with her to Salt Lake. Mom took dad in through the back entrance to limit his exposure to others, dad was able to check his e-mails and briefly see a few of their friends; this quick trip back to their home away from home was just what dad needed, he looks forward to the day he can return full time. It won't be long.
Dave and I went over to visit with mom and dad this evening and while we were visiting we watched as dad's hair fell out strand by strand. The hood of dad's sweatshirt was full of beautiful silver stubble. We have been surprised as to how quickly dad's hair had grown back following surgery; we are now surprised how quickly it is disappearing.
Dave and I went over to visit with mom and dad this evening and while we were visiting we watched as dad's hair fell out strand by strand. The hood of dad's sweatshirt was full of beautiful silver stubble. We have been surprised as to how quickly dad's hair had grown back following surgery; we are now surprised how quickly it is disappearing.
As dad was visiting with Aunt Connie on the phone this evening we heard him say "I've heard that bald is beautiful, we'll now find out".
We think our dad is beautiful with or without hair, beanie on or beanie off; but the things we find most beautiful about our father are his expressions of gratitude, his courage, his positive outlook,
his determination, and his testimony. We are experiencing a beautiful life.
10.7.2008
Dad continues to take care of his physical self which in turn is caring for his emotional self. Exercising has always been an important part of dad's day and regardless of any diagnosis he has received he has maintained a healthy exercise routine. Dad reminds us often that he most likely would not have had the positive outcome following each of his surgeries had he not been in such good physical condition going in, we couldn't agree more. Each time someone inquires as to how he is doing dad exclaims "doing marvelously well", regardless of the number of times I have heard him say this I continue to be amazed at his energy, enthusiasm, and faith.
Dad is in week three of chemo and radiation and we are now starting to see subtle glimpses of side effects: mild fatigue, and minor blistering of radiation site. Mom and dad took a drive up to the pasture this evening to check on the horses.
Note to self: stand up and kick up exercise routine, if a man with brain cancer can do it you certainly have no excuse!
Dad is in week three of chemo and radiation and we are now starting to see subtle glimpses of side effects: mild fatigue, and minor blistering of radiation site. Mom and dad took a drive up to the pasture this evening to check on the horses.
Note to self: stand up and kick up exercise routine, if a man with brain cancer can do it you certainly have no excuse!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
10.6.2008
One month ago today I thought our lives had been turned upside down, in all reality I am discovering that our lives as they are now are possibly more right side up than they have ever been. Priorities are more in line, relationships are stronger, prayers are more earnest, our testimonies are firm, expressing gratitude is now a habit, laughter is ever present, and we are witnessing daily miracles.
Mom took dad to his Medical Oncologist today for a routine appointment. It was no surprise to mom and dad to hear from another medical professional "you are remarkable". Each time dad goes to an appointment this sentiment is expressed; we agree, our father is remarkable. The doctor told mom and dad that he has dealt with this awful disease and diagnosis every day of his career and he rarely, if at all has the opportunity to tell a patient that he sees great promise for them. He reminded us that our focus needs to be on dad's quality of life and from his standpoint he finds dad's quality of life remarkable.
In one month's time we have learned some powerful lessons from our mother and father, it is now up to each of us to apply what we have learned so that we too can be remarkable.
Mom took dad to his Medical Oncologist today for a routine appointment. It was no surprise to mom and dad to hear from another medical professional "you are remarkable". Each time dad goes to an appointment this sentiment is expressed; we agree, our father is remarkable. The doctor told mom and dad that he has dealt with this awful disease and diagnosis every day of his career and he rarely, if at all has the opportunity to tell a patient that he sees great promise for them. He reminded us that our focus needs to be on dad's quality of life and from his standpoint he finds dad's quality of life remarkable.
In one month's time we have learned some powerful lessons from our mother and father, it is now up to each of us to apply what we have learned so that we too can be remarkable.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
10.5.2008
A long, miserable night has taught us a very valuable lesson regarding taking numerous medications on an empty stomach. Dad ate a late lunch yesterday afternoon and was not hungry again before going to Priesthood; Dad usually takes his evening medications with dinner and his anti-nausea and chemo just before going to bed (they have to be taken on an empty stomach). His routine was broken up last night so he took all of his medications just before retiring for the evening, bad idea, he has mentioned several times today "I won't do that again".
Dad and the girls enjoyed french toast for breakfast , I arrived just in time to settle around another cozy fire to enjoy General Conference.
Marty and Teri prepared to drive back to Idaho following the morning session of conference, our fun weekend with them had come to an end far too quickly. Teri fixed a yummy lunch of and then they were on their way home. We are so grateful for this cute family and their tasty food, fun conversation, laughter, hard work, and Marty's completion of mom and dad's "Soney Do" list, now hurry back!
Jeff, Steph, Tucker, and Peyton stopped by in between conference sessions and took dad for a short ride in Steph's new car. Mom was able to return home early this afternoon to enjoy part of the final session of conference with dad, Dave and I.
Matt, Michele and their family arrived early this evening keeping their tradition of bringing in dinner for mom and dad after a long weekend of General Conference service. Our parents enjoy and appreciate this generous and sweet ritual, thank you Michele.
We have been richly blessed this weekend as we have received hope, love, gratitude, and strength from our leaders. There were numerous moments when our family felt that the past two days had been planned and executed just for us, evidences of this being true are:
1-We were admonished to live life more simply, to focus on things necessary for spiritual survival; we realigned our priorities September 6, 2008.
2-We were encouraged to be good neighbors and friends; we know how important good neighbors and friends are in challenging times, we thank each of you for being so incredibly "good".
3- We were reminded of the sacred ordinance of the sacrament; our burdens seems lighter through the promises of the Atonement
4- We were told to show love and compassion to all; through this trial we are developing greater compassion and understanding of those around us.
5- We were reminded of the importance of hope;“The brighter the hope — the greater our faith. The stronger our hope — the purer our charity,” President Uchtdorf
Ouf father is a great example of hope, strength and charity.
6-We know that we are surrounded by ministering angels; "Indeed heaven never seems closer than when we see the love of God manifested in the kindness and devotion of people so good and so pure that ‘angelic’ is the only word that comes to mind.” Elder Holland
7-We were encouraged to make our prayers more meaningful; we are aware of each and every prayer offered in behalf of our family. We are humbled, we are grateful.
8-We were asked to strive for unity; we have witnessed family, friends, ward members, and loved ones unite in our father's fight against cancer
9-We were urged to laugh; we find ourselves engaging in laughter more each day and we appreciate those in our lives who provide the opportunities.
10-Most importantly, we were instructed to take things "day by day"; we are learning to treasure and appreciate each minute, each hour, of each and every day.; this is our one and only chance.
Dad and the girls enjoyed french toast for breakfast , I arrived just in time to settle around another cozy fire to enjoy General Conference.
Marty and Teri prepared to drive back to Idaho following the morning session of conference, our fun weekend with them had come to an end far too quickly. Teri fixed a yummy lunch of and then they were on their way home. We are so grateful for this cute family and their tasty food, fun conversation, laughter, hard work, and Marty's completion of mom and dad's "Soney Do" list, now hurry back!
Jeff, Steph, Tucker, and Peyton stopped by in between conference sessions and took dad for a short ride in Steph's new car. Mom was able to return home early this afternoon to enjoy part of the final session of conference with dad, Dave and I.
Matt, Michele and their family arrived early this evening keeping their tradition of bringing in dinner for mom and dad after a long weekend of General Conference service. Our parents enjoy and appreciate this generous and sweet ritual, thank you Michele.
We have been richly blessed this weekend as we have received hope, love, gratitude, and strength from our leaders. There were numerous moments when our family felt that the past two days had been planned and executed just for us, evidences of this being true are:
1-We were admonished to live life more simply, to focus on things necessary for spiritual survival; we realigned our priorities September 6, 2008.
2-We were encouraged to be good neighbors and friends; we know how important good neighbors and friends are in challenging times, we thank each of you for being so incredibly "good".
3- We were reminded of the sacred ordinance of the sacrament; our burdens seems lighter through the promises of the Atonement
4- We were told to show love and compassion to all; through this trial we are developing greater compassion and understanding of those around us.
5- We were reminded of the importance of hope;“The brighter the hope — the greater our faith. The stronger our hope — the purer our charity,” President Uchtdorf
Ouf father is a great example of hope, strength and charity.
6-We know that we are surrounded by ministering angels; "Indeed heaven never seems closer than when we see the love of God manifested in the kindness and devotion of people so good and so pure that ‘angelic’ is the only word that comes to mind.” Elder Holland
7-We were encouraged to make our prayers more meaningful; we are aware of each and every prayer offered in behalf of our family. We are humbled, we are grateful.
8-We were asked to strive for unity; we have witnessed family, friends, ward members, and loved ones unite in our father's fight against cancer
9-We were urged to laugh; we find ourselves engaging in laughter more each day and we appreciate those in our lives who provide the opportunities.
10-Most importantly, we were instructed to take things "day by day"; we are learning to treasure and appreciate each minute, each hour, of each and every day.; this is our one and only chance.
10.4.2008
Mom left for Salt Lake bright and early today, she needed to be at the Conference Center by 6:00 a.m. Wet and chilly weather will keep dad inside today; he and the girls enjoyed a cozy fire, good food, and the morning session of General Conference.
Parker's Drive-In was today's choice for lunch, whenever the Idahoans are in town a stop at American Fork's favorite drive-in is a must. Dad will never turn down a steak sandwich; this very sandwich was dad's first meal after being discharged from the hospital.
Dave and Dad dressed in their Sunday best and drove out to the Ranches to attend General Priesthood Meeting with Matt, Cole, and Tanner, Dad was desirous of attending with the boys especially this being the first year in eight years that he has not been at the Conference Center and it was Tanner's first time attending since turning 12.
Prior to leaving dad sat down with Madi and Sammie for an afternoon snack of chocolate chip cookies and milk.
June 2008
Monday, October 6, 2008
10.3.2008
Marty took dad to radiation today, I met dad at his appointment so that we could walk over to the hospital for weekly blood work and a CT that his Neuro-Surgeon had ordered. I saw today for the first time one of the side effects of radiation we had been warned of; dad's scar appeared to be burned and blistered. Dad is faithfully applying vitamin E oil to his surgical site, he will now need to start applying a cream as well. Dad has been so blessed to have minimal side effects from the toxic treatments he is receiving. Despite hospital scheduling errors, registering mix up, poorly trained hospital employees, and a return visit to the hospital to complete the doctor's original orders; today was a good day.
Marty and his family chose to spend their Fall Break here in Utah, we could not be happier. Dad loves seeing his three beauties, Marty works hard around the house the entire time he is here, Teri cooks, cleans, and keeps us laughing. Our weekend is off to a great start. Marty is installing a new trailer hitch and electrical on dad's new little car so that he and mom can travel with the trailer. Marty and Teri also brought a new oven to install in mom's kitchen, mom is thrilled! McLean stopped by this evening before returning to Monterey, Ca.
Mom is preparing for long days at the Conference Center. This upcoming General Conference will be the first in eight years that dad has been home to watch with the family, we are looking forward to spending the weekend being uplifted, counseled, and enriched surrounded by those we love.
Marty and his family chose to spend their Fall Break here in Utah, we could not be happier. Dad loves seeing his three beauties, Marty works hard around the house the entire time he is here, Teri cooks, cleans, and keeps us laughing. Our weekend is off to a great start. Marty is installing a new trailer hitch and electrical on dad's new little car so that he and mom can travel with the trailer. Marty and Teri also brought a new oven to install in mom's kitchen, mom is thrilled! McLean stopped by this evening before returning to Monterey, Ca.Mom is preparing for long days at the Conference Center. This upcoming General Conference will be the first in eight years that dad has been home to watch with the family, we are looking forward to spending the weekend being uplifted, counseled, and enriched surrounded by those we love.
Friday, October 3, 2008
10.2.2008
No one knows the exact causes of brain tumors, there is little explanation as to why one individual develops a brain tumor and another does not. One thing that is very clear is that brain tumors are not contagious, no one can "catch" a tumor from another person.
There are some risk factors associated with an increased chance of developing a primary brain tumor:
Being Male-Generally speaking, brain tumors are more common in males than females. Meningiomas are more common in females.
Age-Most brain tumors are detected in people who are 70 years or older.
Being exposed to radiation or certain chemicals in the work place.
Depending on the type of tumor and stage, patients may be treated with surgery, radiation therapy, and/or chemotherapy; this is the course of treatment dad is receiving.
During dad's post-op appointment with his neuro-surgeon we were informed that a good portion of dad's right frontal lobe had been removed during surgery. Knowledge of this helps us understand why his medical team is so impressed with his quick recovery. It is miraculous that dad maintains good balance, is able to hear out of his right ear, and that he is now finishing up week two of radiation and chemo well ahead of schedule. Technically speaking, dad should still be in rehab receiving daily physical therapy, occupational therapy, and speech therapy.
Richard L. Evans once said this of our Father in Heaven:
There are some risk factors associated with an increased chance of developing a primary brain tumor:
Being Male-Generally speaking, brain tumors are more common in males than females. Meningiomas are more common in females.
Age-Most brain tumors are detected in people who are 70 years or older.
Being exposed to radiation or certain chemicals in the work place.
Depending on the type of tumor and stage, patients may be treated with surgery, radiation therapy, and/or chemotherapy; this is the course of treatment dad is receiving.
During dad's post-op appointment with his neuro-surgeon we were informed that a good portion of dad's right frontal lobe had been removed during surgery. Knowledge of this helps us understand why his medical team is so impressed with his quick recovery. It is miraculous that dad maintains good balance, is able to hear out of his right ear, and that he is now finishing up week two of radiation and chemo well ahead of schedule. Technically speaking, dad should still be in rehab receiving daily physical therapy, occupational therapy, and speech therapy.
Richard L. Evans once said this of our Father in Heaven:
"He will not leave you alone. The Lord God always compensates.
This you can count on."
The compensation we have been blessed with is at times beyond our comprehension. We are not alone and we know that our Father in Heaven is hearing and answering each prayer.
We must have courage during the great sorrows of our lives, and patience for the small and inconvenient ones, and when the day is through we can go to sleep in peace knowing that God is awake.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
10.1.2008
If one did not know of dad's condition they would be shocked to learn of the challenges he has endured and the current ones he is embracing. We keep waiting for the hair loss, nausea, fatigue, loss of appetite, and headaches that are supposed to accompany radiation and chemo treatments. So far so good, prayers are powerful.
Dad has a great team of doctors; his Neurosurgeon, Neuro-Oncologist, Radiation Oncologist, and Cardiologist are definitely gifted in their individual areas. Even though our Father in Heaven has blessed each of these professionals with knowledge, guidance, and wisdom we know who the master physician is.
Dad's appointments with members of his team quickly fill up the weekly calendar but the most important appointments of all are when we communicate daily with the Lord. Each new day is evidence that with prayer strength follows. Dad's physical strength sustains him as he goes from appointment to appointment, dad's mental strength sustains him through the toxic effects of radiation and chemo, and dad's spiritual strength sustains each of us as our lives are being redefined.
Mom and Dad have enjoyed receiving cards and messages of love; they are read daily. Thank You. Please feel free to leave a comment or message for mom and dad as you visit this site.
Dad has a great team of doctors; his Neurosurgeon, Neuro-Oncologist, Radiation Oncologist, and Cardiologist are definitely gifted in their individual areas. Even though our Father in Heaven has blessed each of these professionals with knowledge, guidance, and wisdom we know who the master physician is.
Dad's appointments with members of his team quickly fill up the weekly calendar but the most important appointments of all are when we communicate daily with the Lord. Each new day is evidence that with prayer strength follows. Dad's physical strength sustains him as he goes from appointment to appointment, dad's mental strength sustains him through the toxic effects of radiation and chemo, and dad's spiritual strength sustains each of us as our lives are being redefined.
Mom and Dad have enjoyed receiving cards and messages of love; they are read daily. Thank You. Please feel free to leave a comment or message for mom and dad as you visit this site.
9.30.2008
Dad and I met mom over at Dr. Gaufin's office this afternoon for dad's post surgery appointment. As the doctor was inquiring how dad was feeling I was recording dad's blood pressure and weight when dad exclaimed "I am marvelously well", my writing ceased and I just sat there staring at our extraordinary father.
mar·vel·ous also mar·vel·lous
1. Causing wonder or astonishment.
2. Miraculous; supernatural.
3. Of the highest or best kind or quality; first-rate:
1. Causing wonder or astonishment.
2. Miraculous; supernatural.
3. Of the highest or best kind or quality; first-rate:
How humbling this statement was coming from a man who has endured challenge after challenge posed by years of heart surgeries, congestive heart failure and now brain cancer.
As the appointment proceeded I kept looking at the doctor's face, several times he had a look of disbelief as dad answered his questions. The reactions dad continues to receive from members of his medical team are consistent; shock, amazement, and wonder. As dad informed his doctor of his daily exercise routine he was asked to please modify it somewhat and refrain from doing sit ups this soon after major brain surgery. Dad proceeded to explain that the types of sit ups he was doing were not strenuous, it was obvious that his physician was not accepting this and the next thing you know I had been asked to get up and move my chair. Dad then got down on the floor and began to exhibit his exercise technique, amazing.
Our father continues to demonstrate that he trusts our Heavenly Father with all of his heart and through this trust fears have been replaced with strength and peace.
I continue to learn valuable lessons on faith from my parents, I am seeing that faith enables us to: enjoy the peace that surrounds us and to not fear tomorrow, have the Holy Ghost with us at all times, witness miracles in our lives, have prayers answered, and to have our burdens lightened.
The challenge of tribulation is a refiner of our faith. The Lord said, "For after much tribulation comes the blessings." D&C 58:4
Our father is marvelous, he is causing wonder and astonishment to all those around him. We are witnessing miracles in our lives and we know it is due to the faith in all of the prayers heaven is receiving in behalf of our family. We are humbly grateful.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
9.29.2008
Dad started week two of radiation today, he has arranged for some of the men in his ward to take him to his treatments for the next couple of days.
Following Dad's morning exercise routine he and Dave went for a walk outside. It feels good to take advantage of the beautiful Fall weather we are currently blessed with. Uncle David and Aunt Gayle came down from Park City to visit with mom and dad this evening. Dad continues to handle his radiation/chemo treatments well, he is our hero.
Glioblastoma multiforme (GBM) is the most common and most aggressive type of primary brain tumor, since the brain is the body's center of thought, personality and emotion, brain tumors are often referred to as cancer of the soul-one that affects both the mind and soul.
When dad was initially diagnosed, my frantic Internet search began, I was determined to find a silver lining of hope despite this awful diagnosis. While my daily searching, researching and studies of GBM continue, the lining of hope I was looking for had been right before me the entire time. Doctors, promising treatments, testimonials, and stories from GBM survivors are helpful, comforting, and inspiring yet they are NOT our source of hope.
Following Dad's morning exercise routine he and Dave went for a walk outside. It feels good to take advantage of the beautiful Fall weather we are currently blessed with. Uncle David and Aunt Gayle came down from Park City to visit with mom and dad this evening. Dad continues to handle his radiation/chemo treatments well, he is our hero.
Glioblastoma multiforme (GBM) is the most common and most aggressive type of primary brain tumor, since the brain is the body's center of thought, personality and emotion, brain tumors are often referred to as cancer of the soul-one that affects both the mind and soul.
When dad was initially diagnosed, my frantic Internet search began, I was determined to find a silver lining of hope despite this awful diagnosis. While my daily searching, researching and studies of GBM continue, the lining of hope I was looking for had been right before me the entire time. Doctors, promising treatments, testimonials, and stories from GBM survivors are helpful, comforting, and inspiring yet they are NOT our source of hope.
"May the God of hope fill you with all the joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13
Having an understanding and personal testimony of eternal life and the plan of salvation provides hope for each of us. Our Father in Heaven allowed this trial of dad's brain tumor to test our faith and belief in hope, as challenging as this trial is our parents continue to remain faithful to the Lord because they have a sure understanding that He is faithful to us. Dad exudes a spirit of hope and even though cancer has entered his brain he does not allow it to enter his soul.
Although the future is uncertain I am so thankful for the arrival of each new day; for they are wrapped in a silver lining.
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